"At that moment, I lost all respect for my beloved little brother. No matter what negative worrisome thoughts I had had about him before, that episode just reinforced and sealed the deal for me."
Randy B. Fowler, who is the estranged older brother of the disgraced Hollywood star, recently spoke exclusively at length to Hot Press about being sexually abused by their own father, as well as his brother Kevin's secret life. Randy has now penned a memoir with his co-author, Bonnie Solo, entitled 'A Moment In Time: Living in the Shadows'. Here's an exclusive excerpt from the book in which Randy reflects on the dealings he had with Kevin when they came face-to-face for the very last time when their mother was on her deathbed. Randy explains here, for the first time, in his own words, about the moment he lost all respect for his brother ...
My mother was a Christian Scientist and did not believe in going to see a doctor after having had a stroke after my father’s death. She told no one. During the following years, her health began to deteriorate rapidly. We later found out that she had had a cancerous brain tumor. Unfortunately, it was too late for anything to be done.
I remember Mother calling me about six months before she died. She still had all of her mental faculties intact, and she pleaded for me to come visit her so that we might talk.
Unfortunately for me, I was too broke at the time to even afford a plane ticket. I pleaded with my brother, Kevin Spacey, to send me a plane ticket so that I might visit with our mother before she would lose her capacity to communicate.
As usual, all I got from him was a cold shoulder and no response as I waited month after month, anticipating a plane ticket. It was not until a month before Mother died that my brother finally called me back and told me: “I think it is time for you to come see Mother.”
My brother Kevin Spacey, who is worth well over $80 million, finally reluctantly sent me a plane ticket to come visit our mother. When I arrived at the LAX airport, to my surprise, there was a limousine there to pick me up...NOT my brother himself.
At the time, I thought this was a very cold gesture from Kevin to just let me know that he was a rich, famous, and a big shot now. After settling into my hotel room, a luxury suite, I became very suspicious as to why Kevin had only put my sister and her family up in a non-luxury room. Fortunately, he had also rented a car for me to use during my visit so that I could commute to and from my hotel to my mother’s home.
Upon my arrival at my mother’s house, I was absolutely devastated when I realized the condition in which she was; she was so far gone mentally that she could not even utter a single word and have that conversation I had waited to have with her for over 35 years.
We might have been able to talk about my childhood and her lack of intervention from the horrific abuse I had suffered from her husband, my father... “The Creature.”
The glazed look she had in her eyes made me cry profusely. Not being able to talk to my mother about my childhood was the greatest lost opportunity I had ever experienced in my life.
The time together would have allowed us to finally experience peace, love, and acceptance... just the two of us together. It was denied by my brother's own ego and cruelty not to even share Mother with me for the briefest of moments. I do not know if I will ever forget or forgive him for such a blatant act of selfish cruelty.
Kevin really showed his true colors by making me wait to the very end to see our mother. He not only denied my mother her last remaining wishes, but also he denied me my own peace of mind for which I had desperately waited my entire adult life to resolve.
It was devastating for me to be left with such a tragic and empty feeling inside my gut knowing that my mother finally mustered up the courage to talk about my troubled childhood and the dastardly deeds her now deceased pedophile husband had perpetrated on me.
I remember sitting alone with my mother and holding her hand trying to communicate with her and realizing that she could not comprehend or understand a word I was saying to her.
Suddenly, Kevin walked into the room and literally pushed me off to the side, so he could sit next to our mother and comfort her. He would not even allow me to spend a few precious minutes alone with our mother before behaving like the slimy and clingy little mama's boy that he had become.
I was totally disgusted by his behavior and realized that my own brother was being very selfish and totally inconsiderate of my feelings. This hurt me deeply more than words could ever express. Victims of child abuse often have very fragile feelings because their feelings have been so damaged during their childhoods.
My brother's despicable behavior by shoving me away from our mother left me immensely pissed off at him.
I decided to return to my hotel room realizing that he was not even going to let me try to communicate with Mother. I thought to myself: “What was Kevin so afraid of?”
From my own perspective, while watching his strange and peculiar behavior toward our mother, I came to the most chilling conclusion and observation. Kevin not only appeared to be actually jealous of me, but his clinginess and affection toward our mother resembled how someone might treat their lover more than a normal mother-and- son relationship. I know that sounds really creepy, but can you imagine how I felt witnessing this entire episode play out right in front of my own eyes at such a tragic time for me?
I must admit that night my brother graciously took my sister's family and me out for dinner. I am sure everyone has experienced being in a public place and seeing someone act rudely towards another person and not realizing that there were other people watching and listening to them, especially when that person might be famous in the public eye. I happened to experience this first hand watching how my own brother treated one of his movie fans.
We were all sitting at the table and eating while having somewhat of a pleasant conversation between ourselves when suddenly a couple of strangers approached me and said that they would love to have my autograph and picture with them. Being the pleasant and outgoing person that I am, I was not only flattered but also honored to give them my time. Excuse me, but I sincerely believed that at that time, it was the strangers’ time also, regardless of the fact that they were temporarily disturbing my dinner with my family.
I graciously gave them my autograph and then posed for a couple of photos with them. They thanked me so much and walked away with smiles on their faces. I glanced over to my brother, and he gave me the most disturbing glare that was very familiar to me. I was a bit startled and taken aback by his response and wondered: “Why the dirty look, Bro?”
Then, I realized that Kevin was actually jealous that someone else was paying attention to me and not him; his internal reaction projected the following thoughts that you could read all over his face: “How dare they! Don't they realize that I'm the great Kevin Spacey, and my brother is a nobody?”
He immediately sat up straight in his chair and took off his ridiculous backwards baseball cap hoping that someone would recognize him.
Not even 15 minutes had past and someone else approached our table and said to my brother: “Oh I just love all of your movies; could I have my picture taken with you?”
I will never forget what my brother did next. I was absolutely disgusted and embarrassed to suddenly realize that Kevin Spacey was even related to me.
He looked up with such anger and rudeness toward the stranger with his mouth still full of food and said to her: “Can't you see I'm f*****g eating dinner? Leave me alone!”
I could see by the woman’s face how totally shocked and heartbroken she was that her movie idol could treat her so rudely and with such contempt.
After the woman walked away, I leaned over to my brother, and I said to him: “What's your f*****g problem? Don't you realize that she's one of your fans? She's going to tell her friends about how rudely and disrespectful you treated her. She in turn will tell her other friends, and the vicious cycle of bad publicity will come back to haunt you in movie ticket sales.
"Why would you treat anyone that way? She used to buy your movie tickets, but I bet now she won’t buy them anymore nor will any of her friends for that matter. Don't you realize that you just lost a bunch of fans by your atrocious behavior?
"If you don't like being bothered by strangers, why did you decide to become an actor when you knew very well that being approached by strangers and being in the public eye was part of the Hollywood movie business scene?”
Kevin just looked over at me and said: “Couldn't she see I was f*****g eating dinner?”
After that rude and entirely impolite response, I looked over at my family and could see the look on their faces and how shocked, ashamed, and embarrassed they were at my brother's outburst and behavior.
At that moment, we realized that our sweet little brother, Kevin Spacey Fowler, had become a totally different person from the amicable brother we had known in our childhood. Mother’s last wishes were that Kevin, Julie, and I would be close again. So sorry, Mother, we gave it our best shot.
Unfortunately, that is where the problem often stems from. Being a rich and famous movie star I guess often makes one think he or she can get away with any illicit behavior without any consequences. Kevin’s behavior that evening had given me a glimpse into his personality and who he really had become. His behavior revealed to me that he had become a narcissistic control freak, a male diva, so to speak.
Everything had to be on his terms regardless of who was going to get hurt in the process. At that moment, I lost all respect for my beloved little brother. No matter what negative worrisome thoughts I had had about him before, that episode just reinforced and sealed the deal for me.
You can buy Randy's e-book, which he co-wrote with Bonnie Solo, on Amazon here: amazon.com
To read Randy's full interview in Hot Press you can order a copy of the magazine via download in the iOS app .
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